Ouch, I’ve been hit hard recently (lots of things I don’t want to go into), My life has changed in a totally different direction just lately, and health wise, I ain’t looking so good.. I just hope I’ll be okay..

I have drank and smoked the most so much just recently, I’m starting to get paranoid about it, I wonder if it’s affecting my mental health? (which honestly is not so good, I’m so emotionally unstable) But hey, I need to change my site slogan from “If life is a joke, I don’t get it!” to”A story of a guy who’s spiraling downhill”. I hope something good comes out of all this, like John Frusciante, one of the greatest guitarists in the world (and one of the people I truly look up to), he joined The Red Hot Chili Peppers, he then quit in 1991 because the fame was too much for him. He then stayed in mostly for years, being high on drugs all the time, to a point where he was dying, slowly weakening, but during that time, he made songs, people listen to them now and think it’s a mess, it’s horrible, but when I listen to his albums from this time, I can see past the screaming and horror, I can understand his pain, what he’s going through (except I’m not in John’s position), but he pulled out from those times and re-joined the band and is now playing better than ever. It is a miracle he is alive.. Wow I just totally swerved the topic onto a sideroad..

Anyway, I seriously need to find something that can help me, no matter how many times I go Nightclubbing with my friends, and fun things like that, I’m not truly happy, and it just gets worse and worse for me, I’m weakening and I need to find a cure..

Well I’m going back to College to start the Advanced Diploma in IT course soon, so that’s something to look forward to I guess..

I updated the “About Lee” Page on here, basically I just copied & pasted from my Facebook Profile but have a read anyway, don’t bother with the links, I just can’t be bothered to remove them.

Hmm, I’m getting tired now, I better go to sleep (on the old matress behind a couch downstairs on my Aunties floor, it sounds rubbish but I’m used to it by now).

Lee